This last three weeks has been painful, crazy, great and everything all at the same time.
I got my gall bladder out three weeks ago tomorrow and the pain from surgery is pretty much gone except when I lay down. Which is not at all helping…
Redefining solitude and what that looks like and feels like is another thing I have been exploring over the last few weeks and I have been going deeper; in my thoughts, in my feelings, and in my life since this surgery; not sure what if anything the two have to do with each other other than it is simply a marker…and who knows, maybe they do have more in common than I realize.
I feel like the evolution of me has been incredibly intense these weeks; deep like really grasping what it is that makes me ME and accepting it as well; turning away all the thoughts that no longer work or that are not mine…and hearing my own voice about the simple decisions of my life.
I am not saying what it going through my head probably because there is just so much; but I just wanted to check in and write down that I am healing; and I am wanting to grow herbs and become the old lady that lives at the end of the lane that people wave at as they drive by.
Contentment is a wonderfully odd, unfamiliar thing but it is completely sweet and sublime.
This photo is familiar somehow…growing up on the ocean and in the woods…it is one of my reconnecting places.