The Beauty That I See…

This is a photo of me 17 days without sugar!!  YAY ME!!!

I woke up and was itching y neck like crazy and this photo is blown out (my forehead and cheeks weren’t that red) and I looked myself in the mirror and told me that I loved me and snapped this ‘before’ photo as a keepsake.

My body AND my brain are currently so at peace with not having sugar in me it is amazing. I am connecting to true, real peace and it is wonderful.

May you all find that inner peace throughout this, the last day of June 2017.

Deep Love & Rich Blessings.

OxoxoX

 

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Cat’s Out of The Bag…

or any other animal that might have been lurking in the bag that I had no idea about…

Well with the ushering in of the new year on this, the third day, I was encouraged to write my journey of living with mental illness…and I did.

Just put hands to the keyboard, haven’t even had coffee yet, and typed out a basic synopsis of what the last 52 years have been like…

eeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkk!! It feels scary and vulnerable and powerful all at the same time. Other people are going to know what I have lived through…people I do not know nor will I ever see are going to know a bit, well the essence really, of who I am…

whew. there is a little girl inside jumping up and doing going ‘yawhooooo she finally did it!!!’ Yep I finally talked about my journey and I feel a bit like I have jumped into the coldest water ever when it is 20 below at…you know that exhilaration that goes with that, well that must go with that….

I DID IT!!!! YAWHOOOOOOOOOO!!

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No more darkness. No more hidden corners of darkness. The sash has been drawn and the window pulled up to let the fresh air come wafting in through the pillars in the attic. It will soon become her solitary place and not the place she runs to to scream and holler and hurt herself.

Goddess has been given permission to move into the attic and protect her…I no longer have to do it; it is no longer me, but Goddess, who will take care of her…I can let all of that go…

I AM FREE!!!

Blessed Be )0(

Our Opinions Matter Day!

Today we stand on the edge of something somewhat exciting and very scary (in my mind)!

Today is the day where America can exhale…the votes will be tallied and numbers shared across our fine country!

Even though I live, literally, as far west as one can (without going into the ocean), I still feel proud that this is my very first year making my voice heard; recognizing inside me that I matter! Sure my vote will not decide the election, it takes everyone’s to do that; but what my vote does do is remind me that I live in a country where women suffered greatly to give me the choice to vote! I live in a country where I can choose who delegates and makes the choices I feel need to be made! I do not have many choices about matters pertaining to things not in my own life; voting gives me that right!

Having said all of that…I will be grateful not to be getting splashed with hate and garbage about the candidates after tomorrow…well I can at least hope right!

So whether you did or didn’t, whether you went up to a poll or mailed it in; congratulations! Congratulations for standing up for you and making your voice heard! Knowing that it truly does matter!!

OxoxoX

Sock Junkie…

I think it’s happened…

Three pairs in and I’m hooked. Not just because they are a simple project. Not just because  they are quick and easy to ‘kick out’ but rather because the  yarn is so wonderful and actually creating something that I can wear is nothing short of a miracle…for real.

I have ordered 8 skeins (the dark blue one in photo is for my sister) of fingering weight yarn all for the purpose of creating beautiful and happy feet…

I love the simplicity of a sock. I love that once I memorize the pattern, I don’t have to look at it anymore and I can even watch tv when knitting and purling.

I love that I persevered and had to gun-ho-ness to figure out how to finally make socks. I say finally because I have tried several times and it seems like in knitting, as in life, that what I try to do may not be succeeding in the moment because it isn’t the right moment…

So I persevered. I love creating something with my own two hands. I can get as sporadic with colors as I want. It is totally up to me.

I love that.

Perseverance and letting go all at the same time..in October I have made a total of three (plus one) pairs of socks already and I am gonna keep going. It brings me great pleasure…

Now to get my mom’s size foot…

Rainbow Colored yarn is called Unicorn Poop…I mean come on 😛

Much Love

OxoxoX

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When.

when i hear your voice

i feel the universal connection to my soul.

when i see your eyes

i inspire to be more.

when i feel your touch

the flame of a thousand fires ignites in my guts.

you are me. i am you.

universe upon universe separate our souls

yet we cannot unknown what we know…

each other.

raw.

real.

always…

thank you.

02/11/16

%22Soul Searching” by MichaelO

NaBloPoMo

Yep, you read it right. It is a challenge to myself, just because, to write a blog post (BloPo) every day of this month (Mo)!! And the Na is but of course….national.

I have no direction, not going anywhere or working towards a book or anything I am just writing.

I am not sure of the desired result, however, mine is just to see if I can write something on this blog every day.

Today has been a good day, bill paying day always is at my house. And I got to order some Unicorn Poop (didn’t know it was edible, but this is yarn) had a coffee this morning and came home and ordered more yarn (including some for my sister)…AND…I still have money on my bank card…

I am feeling uber grateful about that and very, very blessed for sure.

I am currently working on a variegated sock and I think I am going to watch something…just cuz I can.

May the rest of your day be filled with love and light.

OxoxoX

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